Journal Week 5

I feel God is asking me to be set apart from the world by showing me my true identity in Christ. The lectures helped me to understand that we are unique creation of God, that Jesus is the first born of a new race and we are hid bloodline, his eternal companions. God chose us before the creation of the world (Ephesians 1:4) The Lord's portion is his people (Deuteronomy 32:4) he takes pleasure and delights in his people (Psalm 8:6; 115:16;149:4). We are His (1 Corinthians 3:16) and His Spirit dwells in us. This means that we are given the authority to fight the enemy and be a group, called to be set apart - ekklesia. We do not live in the world as the world does any longer.
Even after my repenting session during Father Heart week, God has been revealing things that He wants to get rid of. One by one, day by day, and I feel like he wants to draw me near, but desires me to be holy and righteous before Him. He spoke to me many times during our hiking trip. He pointed out my tendencies to judge others. I repented of this sin and asked for his healing. On Sunday, He woke me up at 6:55 AM, which never happens, and encouraged me to read the Word. In the middle of it all, God gave me these words regarding judging others. "I entrusted my relationship with you specifically. Seek me first, don't look at others. Trust in me that I will take care of them. I know I gave you a heart to love others and care for them. But, I got this (in His time). Love me first and I will use you to do greater things to help others." This came from a heart that was questioning why others don't seem to seek God in the way that I do. He showed me Philippians 4:19 and it read "(God) will meet all your needs according to the riches  of His glory." In His time, according to His plan, His glory and not mine.
He planned to tell me this at 6:55 AM, just because I asked him to heal me of this a couple days ago. He is so personal in speaking to me and I need to put my faith in Him that He will take care of those around me just as He did for me.